Sunday, October 13, 2013

Sunday night thoughts

I went to Church today. I won't lie to you, it had been a while since I sat through a Catholic Mass. I went through a bit of a questioning period this past summer where i was trying out other faiths.

But then my dad was diagnosed with cancer, and somehow I was drawn back to St.Hugo. Maybe that makes me a bad Catholic or even selfish. But in the last few weeks I have been reminded that St. Hugo is home. And I want to be home. Plus, I feel a desire stronger than ever to be closer to God.

During the homily, the priest said "grateful people are happy. Ungrateful people cannot be happy".

I thought about this for the rest of Mass. I am not always grateful. I try to be, but sometimes I let negativity win and I forget how to be grateful. It's easier to be negative and to feel hopeless. I know those feelings well. And sometimes I let them take over. I whine and complain and push away all the good things, pretending not to see them. I full on convince myself that life sucks and it's never going to get any better.

But those are lies. Life is hard, and it throw really strange and difficulty things at you, but there's still a glimmer of hope and there's still beauty. There is always something beautiful happening, even when things seem to be falling apart.

I'm going to try my best to look for the beautiful things. I can't promise I will be 100% successful.  I can't tell you I'll hop on here every day and list every beautiful thing that happened that day. But I can promise that I will try. I'll look for them, and be grateful. Because grateful people are happy and I want to be happy.

Right now, in my seat, I see a few beautiful things. I see my best friend on the couch next to me, letting me watch the Tigers even though she doesn't really care. I see a house that I have lived in for almost two years. I see a cat who I pretend to hate but actually love. I see the Tigers winning 1-0. I see a lot of beautiful things. And I am grateful for them.

Have a good week everyone. Find the beauty.


Rob-bear said... Add Reply

Yes, there is a strong link between gratitude and happiness. Glad you have linked that up. It starts with the feeling of gratitude. Which leads to the doing of gratitude — in prayer and in service to others. Our world desperately needs both.

Life is pretty simple, even if it is hard.

Blessings and Bar hugs!

Shari said... Add Reply

Such a good perspective to have, no matter what the situation. Thank you for that reminder. <3

Hannah said... Add Reply

I haven't been to church for ages I love the priest and I lived getting married there and having the children christened it was wonderful. But unlike you I don't feel that pull towards it my faith has always been inside my mind my heart I sit and (not often enough) pray on my bed at night. I love to see beautiful things and be thankful but you're right, it's difficult x

Elizabeth Rosalyn said... Add Reply

Glad to hear you have found your way home again! I'm grateful to read your inspiring thoughts this Sunday morning. There's beauty all around us, if we choose to look. :)

Christine Zeiger said... Add Reply

You are not many people wander away from "church". However, one of the greatest joys is discovering that although we may wander, God has been right beside us all the time. Please don't be so hard on yourself. And if you are looking for beautiful things in life, simply look in the mirror :)