Monday, December 6, 2010

Guess I Better Move On

Random blog post is random.

Yep, this is going to be one of those blog posts where I just ramble about things. I'm not sure if anyone has even noticed I haven't blogged in a few days, but just incase...I am alive. No worries :)

Here's the thing. I've been super, super stressed about my lack of writing. I know that may seem like a silly little thing to be stessed out...but you have to understand that for me, writing is my escape. So not being able to write has been painful. I simply have nothing to write about these days. There's nothing to inspire me. Last year, my kids at Cristo Rey inspired me every single day. Working at Focus Big Brothers Little Hope Sisters Club has not had the same affect. Not that the kids aren't great...cuz they are. (Most of the time). They just aren't the same. It's nothing I can explain very well, so you'll just have to trust me.

So let's see. Here are the things happening in my life:
-While I haven't had any inspiration in writing blogs or song lyrics, I have been pretty successful with my Women of Faith essay. What that means, for those who have no idea:

Do you have a story to share? Something meaningful; something funny; something that changed your heart, your soul, or your way of seeing the world? When you share it with us you could be sharing it with people around the world.

Women of Faith, Inc. and WestBow Press (both divisions of Thomas Nelson, Inc.) have created a writing contest exclusively for you. WestBow Press offers you the opportunity to publish your faith-based writing with a company that combines Christian values and professional services.

When I saw the ad for this contest, I knew I had to enter. I know the chances of winning are slim, but I'm just excited for people "in the business" to read my writing. Women of Faith is kind of my dream outlet for my writing. When I attended the conference on 08, I thought I want to be up on that stage one day, telling my story. Maybe this sounds egotistical, but I believe I have an important story, and I want to inspire people. Writing this essay has so far been a really interesting journey. It has forced me to be honest about some of the hardest times of my life. I've written things in here that will surprise people, things I have kept to myself. I went back and read old blog entries from my college years and wow. I've cringed, I've laughed, I've even cried a little. I'll admit I'm scared for people to read it once it's finished.

-It's December. I really, really, REALLY dislike December. I know, it's Christmas and we should be happy and joyful. I just get so stressed out by the cold, dark days (the sun has officially left Michigan. We won't see it until March), and the holiday season. Plus, I want to eat like...everything. I'm not sure if it's because it's cold or what, but sheesh, I'm hungry all the time!

-Letters to God is a beautiful movie. I cried 95% of the time. It has pretty much every cliche possible (from the "tom boy" best friend named Sam to the angry older brother) BUT it is a really great story. It reminded me so much of Laurence and Amanda- little warriors that they were :) I strongly suggest watching it. You will be inspired.

And, my friends, I think that might be it. Life is pretty cold, snowy, and boring. I hope yours is a little more exciting.


Shari said... Add Reply

Glad to see you posting again ... I missed you!

I so, so relate to your comment about the lack of writing being stressful. I was at a very similar point when I was writing my last novel at the beginning of the year. It wasn't really writer's block, but I didn't feel satisfied with anything I worked on and that just upped the pressure. That was the most important lesson I took away from that book, how to let go, release the pressure, and just relax. It played a HUGE role in this most recent book.

I'm sorry that inspiration has been harder to come by lately - but you know, maybe that just means it'll be all the more special and invigorating when it DOES come back. Because it will come back, and you'll be writing up a storm.

Good luck with the essay <3

joi said... Add Reply

Hey! I'm entering the women of faith contest too! I felt exactly how you did when I went to my first conference. I just wanted to be up there sharing my story as well! And like you, I have definitely drudged up some "issues" that God is dealing with in me as I write. I'm so excited about this whole thing, I can't stand it! Just nice to connect with someone else who is entering =)

Stay encouraged....God's will be done!

Megan said... Add Reply

That's awesome! Congrats :) I'm so close to being finished. I'm actually going to be kind of sad when I submit it, haha. Good luck and God bless!