Before: "you look tired"
After "you look amazing"
Before "if I eat this cake, I will feel better"
After "I hate putting crap into my body. I don't need that"
Before ::tears in the dressing room::
After: Smile..."it fits"
Before: I'm so scared
After: I've got this covered.
Before: I'll do anything to be liked. Even if it means pretending to be something I'm not
After: I'm me, take it or leave it.
Before: Disgusted Looks.
After: smiles and hellos.
Before: out of breath after one flight of stairs
After: 65 flights.
Before: I feel so uncomfortable
After: I feel so light
Before: size 24
After: size 16
Before: Lonely, spending my nights alone in my room writing sad songs
after: Smiles and laughter come easily. Life is fun. I don't want to miss it.
Before: Heating a frozen pizza is cooking, right?
After: new recipes every night
Before: "have you tried losing weight?"
After "how the Hell did you lose all that weight?"
Before: I just want to sleep. All of the time.
After: Nap after a workout.
Before: Did I just break that chair?
After: I can lean back without breaking a chair.
Before: I'm disgusting
After: I look good.
Before: "you have such a pretty face"
After: "you're beautiful"
Before: Can't run around the block without pain
After: 3 miles.
Before: Do I have to face the world today?
After: What's in store for me today?
Before: No one will ever love me.
After: I deserve all the love that Tom gives to me.
Before: I don't like who I am. I want to disapear.
After: I love who I have become. I want to shine. I do shine.
I hope that helped give a clear pictures of what this weight loss journey has done for me, emotionally. It's been quite a ride.