Saturday, May 30, 2009

Remember that one time I graduated?


I thought I would never do this, but I am officially starting a blog. I normally blog via myspace, but since that's pretty much dead these days, and I'm not about to write a new facebook note every week, I started a blog.

It's been a little over a month since I graduated from college. Every person I run into asks the same questions: "Are you excited to be done (which, by the way, should technically be finished. Thanks Mom)?"; "What are you doing now?"; "What do you WANT to do?".

Well folks, here are the answers to your burning questions.

Yes, I am ecstatic to be FINISHED. For those who have known me for a long time, you know it's been a rough for years. If you happen to have just stumbled on this blog, or you don't really know me that well, let me give you the spark notes version. I graduated from the most amazing high school (Mercy) with amazing friends, and I absolutely did NOT want to go to college. I was scared, and as it turns out, most of my fears came true. I wasn't COMPLETELY miserable (all the time) but let's just say...I came home a lot on weekends to escape. So therefore, YES, I was glad to be finished with college. I realize it's only been a month, but I don't miss it. Maybe I will someday, but right now I am quite content with knowing I never have to go through that again.

The second question is one that I avoid. What am I doing now? Well, if you really want to know, absolutely nothing. I've heard that this is quite frequent for recent college grads, but I can't help but feel antsy, bored, and frustrated. What I am ACTUALLY doing now is spending my days cleaning, making dinner for my parents, taking my dog on a walk, and doing a lot of writing. I also catch up on old seasons of Grey's Anatomy. As slacker as that sounds, I have a reason. I applied for a position for the Mercy Volunteer Corps. You can read about it here: Basically, it's like Teach for America in a sense. I will be placed in a US City where I will do a year of service. I get housing, medical insurance, student loan deferment, money for future education, a monthly allowance for food, monthly allowance for personal items, and transportation. I decided to do this because it will give me a year of experience in an area that I am passionate about, plus let me have one more year before I am forced to go into the real world. It's a wonderful thing for me, I'm confident of that. The issue is that I won't find out where I am placed until late June or July, so finding a summer job is TOUGH. I had a nanny job, but then they decided to go with someone who could stick through the fall for sure, which is something I can't promise. So right now, what I am doing is being an unemployed bum who listens to Kelly Clarkson on full blast while making dinner for her amazing, supportive parents who are SO kind to let me live with them.

What do I WANT to do? You could be here all night for the answer to this one! I want to change the world! I want to meet Oprah! I want to cure cancer! Dream big, right? What I want to do is follow God's plan. I want to go wherever He sends me. I know that wherever I end up with the Mercy Volunteer Corps is all meant to be. After that is over, I WANT to move to Nashville with really awesome full time job, but really all I CAN do right now is take things one day at a time. As far as a full time, future career, I don't know. Sorry. Can't answer this one for ya.

This blog is already insanely long, but there are a few other things going on in my life that should be addressed. Some of it's good, some of it's not so good.

My 14 year old cousin, Laurence, was diagnosed with brain cancer last year. He's had his ups and downs with it, but about a week ago we found out that his tumor has doubled in size. He needs your prayers and support right now. Laurence is also one of the most amazing young men I know. He recently asked Make-A-Wish Foundation to use the money they would have used to help make his wish (to meet Bono) come true and donate it to the United Nations Fund. If you're on facebook, join his facebook group "Make Extreme Poverty History". You'll be amazed at the things this kid has to say.

Exciting news is that my brother is engaged! He has been dating his girlfriend Sara for five years. I am very, very, happy for both of them and proud to welcome Sara to our family officially. They are both wonderful people and deserve the best, which they now have :) Congratulations, you two!

The engagement news has sparked several people to find it acceptable to tell me "well Megan, you're next". Perhaps I am next in the marriage line, but unless you would like to introduce me to a steady boyfriend that I have, this is NOT happening anytime soon. I am 21 years old and single, people! I could ramble on and on about my feelings toward certain boys right now, but I will save that for a later blog. Just go listen to every Spill Canvas song ever written, and you'll get a good idea of what I'm going through.

The final piece of information (I promise) that I'll share today is the dieting issue. If you followed my myspace blogs from January-March, you know how hard I worked. You probably also know that I DID lose 18 pounds. Well now it's May 30, and I have gone completely off track. I can pin it down to the EXACT day I gave up, and that was the day after I walked the 5 mile walk for the homeless. I'll spare you the lengthy details (for now) but school and internship stressed me out, and I gave up. I'm ashamed, I feel guilty, I hated myself for it, but I am officially ready to start back up again. I KNOW it's bad to start and stop, I know I made mistakes, I know I did not try as hard as I should have. I promise you there will be more details on that later. I also promise you that by my goal date, I WILL have lost weight.

Okay, I totally lied. I have one more thing to say. Everyone who knows me knows that I am an American Idol fan, so I've also been getting asked a million times how I feel about this season. Spark notes version: I did not like this season. Adam Lambert is amazing. Kris Allen is a good singer and a nice guy but there is nothing original about him. Who should have won? Adam. Or Allison Iraheta. Kris won, though, and I'm proud of him. Go Kris. Woo.

If you read this whole thing, remind me to hug you next time I see you. My next blog entry will be about music and dieting (because they go so well together...and because I have a lot to say).



Unknown said... Add Reply

Megan first of all I am glad you started a blog!! I think its a great idea for you writing, which you are amazing at!

Second I know we talked about this the other night but I am really excited for you the mercy corps thing. I just KNOW thats something thast would be amazing for you!! Also I know its insanely hard right now finding a job but maybe God's giving you this time off after insane semester? Maybe he feels like YOU NEED A BREAK! and I agree!! You need a break. You need to just LIVE. STOP WORRYING. ENJOY IT because trust me once you start your career you won't have this kinda of time ever AGAIN.

Third I am soo PROUD of you losing weight! YOU DID AMAZING!! and HEY So what!? We all fell off the wagon sometimes what is important is we stand up dust ourselfs off and get back on! Which I know you wll doo!

Okay sorry I think I just wrote a life story here haha. Sorry.

Shari said... Add Reply

I read it all, and I have to tell you, Megan, you inspire me more and more every day. Your outlook on everything is so refreshing. I know this may be a time of uncertainty for you, but you're right -- take it one day at a time, one step at a time, and it will all work out just as it's supposed to. Everything happens for a reason. Try not to worry about the future (trust me, I know that's virtually impossible at times) ... it will all work out <3

Anonymous said... Add Reply

<3 <3 <3
I'm following you too!

elcondado said... Add Reply

Great blog as usual Meggie.

I have come to the firm belief that everything happens for a reason. It is our job to accept that, and be patient in knowing that one day we may understand the reason. So, you are meant to be doing just what you are doing right now. If you could be more understanding and empathic of yourself, and less critical, I think you would find more happiness and contentment, and more opportunities could even begin to show themselves to you.
You can do anything you set your mind to...dream big, live, love, and enjoy!
Love ya Sweetie! <3

Nikki Angel said... Add Reply

I love your blog! I am so glad you decided to start blogging! :-)

I am so excited for you about Mercy Corps it will change your life.

Also, do not be so hard on yourself about the diet. Do not feel guilty or ashamed, it is what it is and shame and guilt will only sabotage your new effort. Today is a new day, make this promise to yourself, not to us this is for YOU a gift you are giving to yourself.

I have faith in YOU! You have traveled a long and arduous road and come through victorious.

Rejoice in your successes, writing for the paper re AI, graduating, seeing Melinda so many times, good friends and family. You are blessed my dear one.
I love you

Spunky said... Add Reply

I am so proud of you and I believe doors will open up that will blow you mind.... I love you bunches..

Anna said... Add Reply

i just stumbled on this and read the whole thing--you are one amazing young woman, Megan!!

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