I think I'm out of the funk. Yeah, I know that was fast. Thank God. THANK GOD. If that was a typical Megan funk, it could have lasted months.
What frustrated me the most was that I feel like I had been growing and changing so much, and suddenly I was at a halt, as if a giant wall of gloom hit me in the face. I don't know what it was, I just know that in those 48 hours I was trapped in a place I thought I had left behind forever. With the help of some amazing friends, I learned that sometimes in life you have to hit a wall. It reminded me that I AM stronger, because instead of sliding down the wall and leaning up against it, I pushed it down. Walls aren't put up to stop us from living....they are there for us to knock down...to keep learning, keep growing. This life is full of choices, it's all about making the right ones. In the end, it's not about the wall, it's about how you defeat it.
I've talked about walls for too long now. Let's talk about friends. I have some amazing ones. Within a matter of minutes of posting my blog last night, I had people offering advice, a shoulder to cry on, reminders that they are here for me. I reflected a lot today on friendships and how funny they are- some of them come out of nowhere. Some people just stay in our lives for a reason. I have people I can count on, people I can always call and who will be my friend forever. I feel lucky to have that. A perfect example is my friendship with Sam. I was talking to someone about this today...sometimes I wonder what the HELL I was in a sorority for. I mean, besides some good memories and a few friendships, it essentially brought out the worst in me....but then I think...God led me to Delta Gamma to meet Sam. I would have never met her ,had I quit, or never joined at all. DG went down the dump just a week after we became besties...which leads me to believe that it is the reason I joined. Sam is one of the only people in my life who knows everything about me, and accepts me for it. Not only does she accept it, but she UNDERSTANDS me. Everything about me...without faking it or trying to hard. She just DOES. I really don't know how lucky I am to be best friends with someone like her.
I'm also incredibly blessed by my roomies, students and my co-workers. My roomies have been so supportive and are always making sure I'm okay and if I need anything. When our principal made the announcement of Laurence's passing, I heard an entire student body gasp. I got chills...the hugs that followed throughout the day were just what I needed and reminded me how much I love these kids. My co-workers were so amazing to me today....asking if I was okay, shoulder squeezes, hugs. I love this job.
day 19 → a talent of yours
I don't really have a talent, to be honest. Unless you count writing, which..well..you just read an entire blog entry of mine. I think you're read-out.
I leave you with this: If there is something blocking you from making your dreams a reality, or from being happy, knock it down. You got this. I'm cheering you on.