Thursday, March 6, 2014

The Truth

So, I have something to admit to you guys.

I just read my WLW post over again, and I think it's pretty obvious my heart wasn't in it this week.

And it wasn't, because I had a little emotional blip. I stuck with eating healthy and working out, but I got really down on myself.

Someone on Facebook who I am acquaintances with posted that she has lost 35 lbs since January. I cried. I legitimacy CRIED. I felt this pang of jealousy, bitterness, anger. She's lost 35 lbs in two months, and I've lost 45 in 9. I felt like a failure. It was a horrible feeling and I didn't tell anyone about it.

Until now.

I am not a failure, and I cannot compare myself to others or their progress. My progress is my own progress and I should be proud and celebrate each accomplishment that I make.

At first, when I read her post, I was really tempted to give up. Those nasty, doubtful voices crept into my head and told me I was never going to make my goal.

But that's silly, and negativity is not going to get me anywhere. So I told those voices to shut up.

I'm nervous about working out since I am sick and last time I threw myself into bronchitis, so I AM taking it easy and I know I may not get to my 50 lb goal as soon as I wanted, but I am NOT giving up. This is my life now- this is me. I am not going to let anything get in my way.

I feel so much better now that I have let all of this out. It was a rough week, friends. But those voices have been pushed aside, and I have welcomed positive thoughts and gratitude back in.

I am going to do this. No matter how long it takes.

Don't give up on me. I haven't. And I won't.



5 comments:

Anonymous said... Add Reply

Someone told me once... the longer you take to lose the weight... the harder it is to put back on! So just take your time and do it your way!
You look great and we are very proud of you!!!!

Shari said... Add Reply

It is so hard not to compare yourself to others sometimes - I fall into that trap with publishing more often that I'd like to admit - but you're right, this journey is yours and you absolutely WILL do it. You ARE doing it, every day, and nobody will ever give up on you! Keep being you, keep doing what you're doing, and keep being proud of all your accomplishments!

Kate @ Another Clean Slate said... Add Reply

You're losing your weight in such a healthy, good way. You have no idea what she did to lose her weight and likely it will be back as quickly as it left. Chin up, friend!

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Dee said... Add Reply

You have already lost a lot of weight! Don't feel bad!