all I know is that fear has got to go

Here's a little glimpse into the life of a 23 year old unemployed girl living with her parents.
-Wake up, apply for jobs for a few hours.
-Clean the kitchen and the family room, eat some lunch
-Go for a walk because since I'm not working I've made getting healthy a focus in my life
-Apply for more jobs
-Read/write/watch tv
-Make dinner
-lounge.

Isn't that exciting? Oh, and here's where it gets really good...it's only day two. I know people who go through this for months. I don't know how I will manage. I'm already looking up ways to keep busy while unemployed. I'd love to take a Spanish class, Zumba, and volunteer with Big Brothers Big Sisters. Only thing is that each of those require money...and a car. Niether of which I have.

I'm looking hard for jobs. I sent in about 15 or so applications/resumes over the past two days. I'm also trying to find a nanny or babysitting job for this little in between period so I can at least have some money coming in. I'm just a tad frustrated. People often tell me that great things are going to happen for me, and I appreciate it, but I don't know what else I can do for it to happen. And I'm always telling other people to go chase their dreams and now I'm the one that's stuck...I don't know how! I wish someone would just tell me what to do next, but no one can. It's all very frustrating and emotionally draining.

I do have to say I am completly overwhelmed by the support of my family/friends. So many people are on the lookout for me with potential jobs or nanny jobs. I love it and am very grateful!

Keep your fingers crossed for me and be good to yourselves. Love you all.