In 2014, I:
- Hit the 50 lb milestone
- Tried Kickboxing for the first time. Fell in love with kickboxing.
- Tried Yoga and Pilates for the first time.
- Wore a size large shirt from The Limited for the first time in my life.
- Ran four 5k's.
- Bought new running shoes from a specialty running store.
- Dropped three sizes and gave away roughly 10 bags of old clothes that no longer fit
- Tried Barre classes
- Sat comfortably in stadium seats
- Looked in the mirror and smiled.
- Stood taller and prouder than ever before.
- Wore a "cute" bathing suit on vacation
- Was asked to share my story with the Metro Detroit YMCA
It's been quite a year for the weight loss journey. At this time last year I was down 32 lbs. Now, I am down 92 lbs. That's 60 lbs in one year (Look, I can do math!). Sometimes when I hear stories of people losing 100+ lbs in a year or less, I get a twinge of jealousy. But I have to remember that my journey is unique to me, and that 60 lbs is an amazing accomplishment. I worked hard, especially considering the cards I was dealt this summer and fall with my dad.
I saw an old friend of ours last week, and her comments about my weight loss were not necessarily about the weight itself. Instead, she said "Everything about you is different. Your mannerisms, your height, your eye contact. You're a different person." Another friend told my mom that I even sounded different on the phone, more confident and outgoing. These are changes that I forget about sometimes, because I get too caught up in numbers and the scale. But they are important changes- just as important, if not more important, than the loss of lbs or fat. I have so much more confidence now. The old me would NEVER have walked into a Barre Studio blindly- without any knowledge of the class or anyone I knew there. But I did it. Admittedly, I had to give myself a pep talk in the parking lot, but I still went in. And even though every girl there looked like a Victoria's Secret Model, I still did the class- and kept up.
I joke around with my fellow classmates at Bootcamp, I tease my instructor, I try new classes, I run on the treadmill without worrying- too much- about whether or not people are looking at me. I run 5k's and even though I'm at the back of the pack, I do it anyway, and with pride. Those things are so, so different than the girl I used to be. And I love it.
The same friend I mentioned above also said "you've just become the new you. Enjoy it". She is so right on, and I was happy to hear her say it. Tom and I get a lot of pressure to move in together or to get engaged- and we're not ready for either of those things. One of those reasons, I'm learning, is that because even though I love Tom and I know I want to be with him, I still am learning to love me- to get to know me. I can't commit to someone else for the rest of my life until I spend some more time with me, first. No, we're not breaking up. I just want to enjoy this new me before I settle down. And there's no one else I would rather have by my side while I do this than Tom.
Sorry for going off on a tangent. But there you have it. I have accomplished a lot of weight loss goals in 2014. It's been an exciting year as the new Megan comes to life. I honestly cannot thank you enough for your support, my friends. I wouldn't be able to do this without you, your encouragement and your advice.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I am going to go sleep the day away because I am the crazy one who did a 75 minute Bootcamp Barre class this morning.