oh, and you are loved

Life update:

I have started my jobs. EEEE. I know some people are dying to know all about them, so here is just a mini update.

Job numero uno, at Big Boys Brothers Club Hope Little Girls Sisters Hope Club. (That's my new name for it). I am there as a part time residential counselor. Translation- I have the same duties of a house mom, without living in the house. I mentor, tutor, cook, clean, drive. I'm working mainly with the girls, but will fill in as needed with the boys. The scholars (kids...we call them scholars) live in the house during the week. Our organization pays for their education and daily living expenses, as well as teaches them life skills. It's a really wonderful program and I am so excited to be part of the family. I have only worked three days so far, but have had great experiences. I'm still getting used to the routine and the scholars, and they are still adjusting to me as well. I will update more once I get a real grasp of the place.


Job number two just started today. I will be working as a consultant/assistant for a wonderful woman I know. Her job is too help provide grants and outreach on government programs aimed toward the departments of health/education. My job is to help her. For example, right now she is working on an initiative to reduce tobacco use among low income women. The reason for this is to benefit their health and the health of their children. The program we design will provide health education materials, counseling/social support, research, etc. So right now I'm in the beginning stages of finding organizations that provide resources/training on this so we can collaborate all the resources onto one website. Make any sense? Probably not. What matters is I know what I'm doing and I am glad to be helping out any way that I can :)

So, other than that, not much is going on. I've had some major writing blocks because my life really is not providing much inspiration, neither good nor bad. But I will say this.

I have learned the importance of finding a support system. No matter what it is you are going through, having people that love you surrounding you is absolutely essential. Luckily, I have seen this in my life often, especially as of late. From the people who helped me to get my jobs, to the people who call/text to ask how they are going, all the people supporting my 1/2 marathon training, etc. On my very first day of work I was completely inspired by the fact that two of my friends showed up at our organization's open house. It made things less stressful for me, and helped me to get through the night without a mental breakdown. I wouldn't be able to do any of this without the support I have been given.

I also think it is important to be grateful for that support. So, thank you, from the bottom of my heart, to everyone who texts/calls, reads my blogs, likes my facebook statuses, etc. You mean the world to me and I cannot thank you enough for everything that you do. Once I finish the 1/2 marathon in February you are all getting a personal letter- including the music artists whose songs have gotten me through the training.

Moral of the story is- find yourself some support. No matter what you are dealing with- you need the support to get you through, even if it's something wonderful and exciting like getting married. Then, show your gratitude for those people, turn around and help out someone else. You never know who could need it. Tell the people in your life that you love them, tell them why you love them. Don't be afraid to speak your love.

I haven't shared song lyrics in a while. I wrote this tonight. It was inspired by a friend of mine. It goes out to everyone who loves and cares for someone who doesn't feel the same.

You flash that bright, sweet smile
Trick them to believe you’re doing fine
But we both know there’s more to you
Than what you’re willing to show the world
let somebody see what’s behind that wall
oh please let that somebody be me
This may seem like a desperate call for your attention
But I’ve been silent for much too long now
And I think it’s time you knew
I could be the one for you
Chorus: Oh I pinky promise I really do care
I’m not like the rest, how can I make you believe
Your secrets are safe with me
I want to know every word to your story
What breaks your heart, who was your first love
Tell me your dreams, what moves your heart
Whenever I see you I can’t help but wish
For more time to be with you, let you break down right infront of me
I smile to myself as you walk past
Hold back from following you and taking your hand
Stop myself from screaming that I love you
And I, I must confesss, I wonder about you all the time
I can sense the trouble in your bright green eyes
Together we will be just fine
Chorus: Oh I pinky promise I really do care
I’m not like the rest, how can I make you believe
Your secrets are safe with me
I want to know every word to your story
What breaks your heart, who was your first love
Tell me your dreams, what moves your heart
I can’t take you away from your own little world
Just believe that I’ll be here waiting
When you’re ready to let someone in
Oh please let that someone be me